Epiphany

I had an epiphany today.  Everyone throws that word around, but let’s see what it really means.

Wikipedia:  An epiphany (from the ancient Greek ἐπιφάνεια, epiphaneia, “manifestation, striking appearance”) is an experience of sudden and striking realization. Generally the term is used to describe breakthrough scientific, religious or philosophical discoveries, but it can apply in any situation in which an enlightening realization allows a problem or situation to be understood from a new and deeper perspective.

I do love and overuse Wikipedia, I know.

Anyway, the epiphany came as  I got more stressed and down in the dumps about time lines and money and goals.  I started thinking about selling my truck and horse trailer, lightening my closet and jewelry box, anything that would extend my savings and time before I get too far down the road of unemployment to bounce back.

Suddenly, and I do mean quite out of the blue, I realized I am right where I am supposed to be for now.  This is the time to be working on exactly what I am working on.  There is no schedule for production, production happens on the world’s schedule in this particular career.

Instead of looking back at what I should have, could have, might have done or forward into the vagueness of the future at where I think I should be,  I need to look at where I am at today and how I am marching forward with my dreams and goals for the bigger picture.  Yes, I need to be aware of time and money – aware and mindful.  But that can’t rule my mind or it will grind to a halt.

Every flower blooms at just the right time, regardless of what the other plants are doing.  Every butterfly emerges from it’s cocoon right on schedule.