This month marked my ninth month of separation from the corporate world and the life it entailed. I had made a mental note and later a note on my calendar, that this would be the month of my total, meteoric meltdown. Sounds strange to think I was actually planning a mental explosion so far in advance but I looked at it this way; nine months is what it takes to birth a human. I figured I would be out of money, cut off from unemployment, in the throes of publishing, and out of options. I was giving birth to the new me that was learning to cope and reinvent.
For the most part, the above has not happened. Unemployment has graciously extended my benefits, I’m in love with the “almost” finished product of my novel and my options just seem to continue to expand. Life is allowing me to reinvent. When I find myself completely frustrated and scared with the schedule of this discovery, I have to remember there is no timeframe. There is no dress rehearsal, no do-over before you do it.
A conversation with my daughter, Lex, brought this point home the other night. (Lex, if you are reading this you might want to skip ahead and avoid the repetition.) She is struggling to find a home by August first and was feeling overwhelmed. I know this feeling and tried a little history to calm her nerves. In the spring of 1996, we had sold our little home. We had six weeks to find and close on another house. A farm in New Hampshire had fallen through and all of our savings were tied up in the mess. Jeff and I had two dogs, a cat and two daughters to shelter as well as full-time jobs. The hunt became frantic. Ultimately, the majestic farm in Lunenburg was our reward for all our fear and anxiety. We just moved forward, it wasn’t fun but then life gave us a break. You never know when the stars are going to align.
And, perhaps, the collective lessons learned have helped me not have my magical meltdown this time. I have written many of those “lessons formed from strife” as I went along. The first collection of those is the novel I have written. (Shameless plug alert! Stop right here if you’ve read it already.) I know I’ve posted the cover choices in the past and been rewarded valuable help and insights. So I thought I would give you a peek at the paperback cover. Click here for the .pdf – softcoverTM
Stay calm and carry on…