search instagram arrow-down

Recent Posts


Top Posts & Pages

Enter your email address to follow this blog and receive notifications of new posts by email.

Join 5,631 other subscribers


Thanks for Freshly Pressing me again!!

Freshly Pressed

Blog Stats

Blogs I Follow

Blog Stats

And again! Thank you to all who follow and support me!!

A wise woman said to me “Perhaps your house hasn’t sold because your next home isn’t ready yet?” We were wandering the trails around the backside of Temple Mountain on horseback. The air had that gentle promise of spring, water gurgled below the surface of the snow, creating space for the earth to push up and soften. Indeed, paths open and directions become clear on their own schedule.

It has been a long slog. I try to end every day listening carefully to the positive small voice that tells me it will all be OK and I have done all I can for now. There are times in life when the timing of events is completely out of our control. It is best to give in to the small joys of the moment, ignoring the ‘elephant in the room’ anxieties.

Where have I been for the past six months? Every month I titled my journal entries:

  • When Inspiration Abounds
  • In the Beginning
  • The End is Near
  • Rhythm and Speed, Rhythm and Reason
  • Send my social security number to Bangalore India? Why, YES Please!
  • The Optimism of Uncertainty

I took a job at a bank. It was a decision born of desperation but it provided some respite from financial stress. Unfortunately, it is probably the only job I have ever held that had the potential to utterly eradicate every shred of self-worth I possess. My journals are full of raw emotion and fear.

My heart wrenched as one daughter moved back across the country to her new destiny, and the other brought my family together with a most magical wedding, renewing my faith in love. When the job proved too much for my soul, I threw all caution to the wind and left. My latest reincarnation on the employment front is to go back to my creative roots  and public service. I am back at the Chamber of Commerce where we have applied for a Grant to start a women’s entrepreneur network. AWE – Advancing Women Entrepreneurs, is a fledgling effort; full of hope and promise. A logo to design, marketing to consider, ideas spark and take hold.

The days are longer, warmer. I  leave home and return again in day light. The dark, short days and cold nights ending in a hurried dinner and early bed are gone. Windows are cracked open; my heart is lighter.

Five years ago I left a big, corporate job. I promised to write, to BE a writer. I self-published my memoir. I wrote my blog and I found ways to exist with less. This is hard, harder perhaps than anything I have done before because the luxury of years ahead to correct the course has been remove. Yet, the quiet voice eggs me on – do good, be good and it will be OK.

The re-emergence I wrote of has been hard-won. I’ve lived in my head for far too long;  but the comments and support from  readers have been the push I needed to start again, It would seem the world in general is telling me to follow my dream and write it down…


My New Year’s Eve tradition of opening the Memory Jar…


16 comments on “And so it goes…

  1. Marie Keates says:

    Like you I walked out of a job that was slowly killing me. Of course I had the safety net of a husband with a job and savings. Money has never been a motivator for me and I’m enjoying ridding myself of too many possessions that own me rather than the other way around while earning a little here and there. I’ve also revisited many of the crafts I learned as a child, knitting, crochet, even felting, repurposing and recycling instead of buying. Money will run out eventually I suppose but the future is a hazy thing. Finally I have learned to live in the moment…mostly.

    Liked by 1 person

    1. Life is too short to wait for happiness and comfort, Marie. I am learning what is truly important and shaking off the rest. Glad to know you are of the same mind!


  2. Hooray! You’re back. Keep posting here. I, too, took a 3-month break from blogging, after the death of my beloved father. I only started back two weeks ago. Spring is around the corner and a time for renewal.

    Liked by 1 person

    1. Time off to reflect Joyce always seems to bring me back with stronger convictions. Welcome back to both of us!!


  3. Touring NH says:

    I love your attitude. So many people would have slunk away in defeat, never giving themselves the possibility to see the future as it can/will be. You will do great at the CoC – you are in your element there!

    Liked by 1 person

    1. Thank you Laura. Upward through the fog…

      Liked by 1 person

  4. jaknisell says:

    I am so glad you are back! I have missed your blogs! You will find your niche as you always do! Things will be great!

    Liked by 1 person

    1. Thanks Annie. Your support is so kind. Indeed, this is the year for things to right themselves and for me to move forward!


  5. Annie says:

    I’m sure you’ll be telling us more about AWE in time. It sounds perfect for your entrepreneurial spirit. Fingers crossed for much support. Lots going on…


  6. julieallyn says:

    Martha, Martha. How I’ve missed your uncanny way to describe the minutiae of the day in a most compelling voice, one that carries the reader along to the very end. I agree with Annie’s comment above. I’m interested to hear more about AWE and excited for you to have discovered this new opportunity. 🙂

    Liked by 1 person

    1. Ah, Julie. I am working my way back and knowing you are out there listening makes it easier. AWE and projects that stretch my creative juices to the edge are abundant, other parts of life have been a struggle. I promise to fill in the blanks soon.


      1. julieallyn says:

        Wishing only the very best for you. Hugs, my friend!

        Liked by 1 person

  7. I know that small (sometimes very small) voice that assures things will turn out, and I, also, try to listen to it above all the rest. Keep on…

    Liked by 1 person

    1. I hear is now here it again, thanks for pointing it out Susan

      Liked by 1 person

Love to know what you are thinking! And thank you for commenting.
Your email address will not be published. Required fields are marked *

Fill in your details below or click an icon to log in: Logo

You are commenting using your account. Log Out /  Change )

Facebook photo

You are commenting using your Facebook account. Log Out /  Change )

Connecting to %s

Pragma Synesi - interesting bits

Compendium of interesting bits I come across, with an occasional IMHO

Putnam, in the studio and beyond

Reflections and ruminations in Education, Beauty, Art and Philosophy

Badfish & Chips Cafe

Travel photos, memoirs & letters home...from anywhere in the world

The city of adventure

From there to back again (usually on a bike)

Nolsie Notes

My stories, observations, and art.

Shellie Troy Anderson


Oh, the Places We See . . .

Never too old to travel!

The Task at Hand

A Writer's On-Going Search for Just the Right Words

Going to Seed in Zones 5b-6a

The Adventures of Southern Gardeners Starting Over in New England

I Walk Alone

The World One Step At A Time

Tootlepedal's Blog

A look at life in the borders

Susan's Musings

Whimsical Stuff from a Writer's Mind

Travels with Choppy

A dog and cat in clothing. Puns. Travel. Bacon. Not necessarily in that order. News

The latest news on and the WordPress community.

A Sawyer's Daughter

The Life & Times of a Sawmill Man's Eldest Child

On The Heath

where would-be writer works with words

The adventures of timbertwig in the forest of Burnley and the Rossendale Valley

crafts, permaculture, forest management, self employment, cycling


Time to change, live, encourage and reflect.


Bring new life to your garden!

The Grey Enigma

Help is not coming. Neither is permisson. -

Ethereal Nature

The interface of the metaphysical, the physical, and the cultural

UP!::urban po'E.Tree(s)

by po'E.T. and the colors of pi

Kindness Blog

Kindness Changes Everything

Crazy Green Thumbs

Chronicling a delusional gardening experience.

New Hampsha' Bees

Raising bees holistically in New Hampshire

Indie Hero

Brian Marggraf, Author of Dream Brother: A Novel, Independent publishing advocate, New York City dweller

Therapeutic Misadventures

Daily musings on life after 60 & recreating oneself

valeriu dg barbu

©valeriu barbu

Writing Out Loud

A Place of Observation

cancer killing recipe

Inspiration for meeting life's challenges.

Archon's Den

The Rants & Rambles of A Grumpy Old Dude


Here we are, trapped in the amber of the moment. There is no why. Kurt Vonnegut

Once upon a time... I began to write

My journey in writing a novel

Not a Day Over 45

A View from Mid-Life

Sharon Hewitt Rawlette, PhD


Diana Tibert

~ I write -

White Shadows

Story of a white pearl that turned to ashes while waiting for a pheonix to be born inside her !

At Home in New Hampshire

Living and Writing in the North East


Two rare, life-threatening diseases that led to a bone marrow transplant and a snappy Buttkick List



International Cowgirl Blog

%d bloggers like this: