February 27, 2013 I took the greatest leap of faith in my life. I signed away a month of living expenses to Archway Publishing (a division of Simon & Schuster) to self-publish my book.
The dilemma I faced was time and money. I set a goal for myself based on my budget and savings to turn my life around and do what I have always wanted to do. I have been working off and on for over two years on the manuscript. It’s a narrative memoir, based on my letters and journal entries from 30 years ago. I turned my life upside down during those years, ultimately ended a marriage and started life over. So here I am doing it again.
I just looked back in my journal from 1982, 31 years ago. I was living in Jakarta, Indonesia and my life was unraveling. My marriage of 5 years was in shambles, the business I had started was taking on a life of its own without me and I was terrified of what to do next. As I read of my fears and anxiety I thought, “You came through that with flying colors, you can do it again.” Life has a way of testing me to what feels like the limit then rewarding me with just what I need to go on.
One month from now, when the credit card bill arrives in my mail box, I hope I am feeling as strong about this as I do now…